when he is not around

point to note: when he is not around, and not, when he is NO longer around.

no one to ask me not to eat trash for breakfast
what i do?
i don't take any breakfast anymore



no one to ask me not to take cold drinks when i cough
what i do?
borrow an umbrella and go out in the rain to buy bubble tea and getting wet



no one to talk to me at night
what i do?
purposely go out until very late and wait till i am very sleepy then i will go sleep




no one to ask me not to wear heels
what i do?
wear heels




no one to ask me to take medicine
what i do?
run away from mummy when she comes with pi pa gao




no one to sms me
what i do?
prepare what to sms him and then delete and then stare at phone and then type sms again and then delete and then stare at phone again





no one to hug
what i do?
hug my booster tight tight and imagine it is him. i have to join 2 boosters vertically because it will then match his height




no one to ask me to take care of my health
what i do?
ask my colleague to get me curry puffs





i miss you. i really do.